so do not worry about tomorrow;

I DON'T!

though it's not common for me to worry about Tomorrow, i am very prone to worry about THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW!

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do-do-do-duu!

well, okay.. yeah, really not too worried about that either. though i agree the likelyhood of  an extreme global ice age catastrophe (or death by extreme heat wave in iowa) is probably highly imminent..

i am waaaay too self-centered to worry about that! i figure if it's going to happen, it'll happen to us all! i instead choose to devote that worrying-capable section of my brain to worry about things that affect me.

MONEY.

enough about that for now, i'll get back to that thought later. i went to church last sunday and the pastor spoke on matthew 6:25-34

“ For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which isalive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith! Do not worry then, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear for clothing?’ For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

so what do we as humans (solo uno worrisome creature) spend all of our time worrying ABOUT?
a-hem,

er, you know...
food, clothes, body, friends, love, family, job, money, car, health, success, politics, death, security, traffic...

we are robbing ourselves the joy of today when thinking about the day after tomorrow.


here are the greatest points out of that passage and sermon i heard:

God has already proven that he will provide for you. (v25) and He point-blank says not to worry!


You are incredibly valuable to God. (v26-30) the birds-- are you not much more valuable than they? go birdwatching! how do they behave? they are up singing in the morning not freaking out because tomorrow where are they going to get worms?! worms are like a commodity-- they're everywhere, we need them, but not that important to be honest.


You have a higher calling than most people. (v31-32) we are not to be like the pagans slave to these things, instead followers of Christ.


You have a Father who knows everything you need. (v32) He knows you need them. so comforting. Moreover, He is our Father! we are not orphans who running after things, looking for the next meal, we are a child of God. He'll take care of us.

so where do we go from there? seek God,


really TRUST,

live one day at a time.

and if i apply those points about my little friend capital MONEY ??

-God's already given me plenty of it in the past, and has been faithful to provide. I've never been destitute.

-I am valuable to God, and he wants to give me good things, but not things that take the place of Him.

-I have a purpose: it's not to be successful and make lots of money, it's to follow Christ.

-God knows I need it. (and how much!) that's all.

sound

of rain at night. i love the way it mixes with one's dreams.

anyway./

up on my wall

on society reaches all time low or otherwise i am pathetic

the impossible has happened. never thought it would happen.

news of the day: read all about it: biggest nerd i am aware of gets engaged today.

it's just not funny. does every friend, and friend of a friend, or a friend and friend of an enemy really have to get married? dear Lord, i am 21 years old for heaven's sake and i'm like the last of the mohicans here.

yes, i am aware you draw more flys with a tomahawk not in hand... however the saying goes; 

wow, i am just really baffled. either society has really dropped it's standards or i just didn't catch that marriage memo going around. i just ask myself. WHERE DO THEY FIND THESE PEOPLE. you know, to get married to. and larger question who?! bless her dear soul ended up with mr. nerd incarnate?!  don't even start telling me how horrible i am for calling him that. this is not a nice nerdy guy, this is that 16 year old looking arrogant kid with tall white socks and cell phone clip. he was the last person i ever saw getting married. 

cruel, just cruel, world.

want to know something interesting? i even started looking at all my girlfriends that are/getting married. Expecting to find something common to all such as yellow hair box dye #47, 

something easily replicated on a large scale... no, instead i discovered a strange trait. rather two, every girl possessed tendencies toward: #1 DOING NOTHING with their life and #2 BORINGNESS. this actually does make sense. guys want a girl they are not intimidated by and can mostly you know, pick up after them.

i mean you don't exactly see the jane goodall's getting the guys (human variety, that is). living too exciting of a life and eccentricity=a big nope. like i said: revisit the two fundamental rules.

ug. i don't want to be boring and do nothing. i don't want to be cinderella.  i just don't see why you can't be this super cool bomb kicking going somewhere woman AND a wife. 

my mom can.

sincerely,

me

breathe. listen.

i remember these times

brooding mini me

growing up. thinking i was a hideous creature 

silly idealistic senior

stress

grrr!

http://qkme.me/36ijug

streams in the desert

“This thing is from me” (1 Kings 12:24). “Life’s disappointments are veiled love’s appointments.” –Rev. C. A. Fox My child, I have a message for you today; let me whisper it in your ear, that it may gild with glory any storm clouds which may arise, and smooth the rough places upon which you may have to tread. It is short, only five words, but let them sink into your inmost soul; use them as a pillow upon which to rest your weary head. This thing is from Me. Have you ever thought of it, that all that concerns you concerns Me too? For, “he that toucheth you, toucheth the apple of mine eye” (Zech. 2:8). You are very precious in My sight. (Isa. 43:4) Therefore, it is My special delight to educate you. I would have you learn when temptations assail you, and the “enemy comes in like a flood,” that this thing is from Me, that your weakness needs My might, and your safety lies in letting Me fight for you. Are you in difficult circumstances, surrounded by people who do not understand you, who never consult your taste, who put you in the background? This thing is from Me. I am the God of circumstances. Thou camest not to thy place by accident, it is the very place God meant for thee. Have you not asked to be made humble? See then, I have placed you in the very school where this lesson is taught; your surroundings and companions are only working out My will. Are you in money difficulties? Is it hard to make both ends meet? This thing is from Me, for I am your purse-bearer and would have you draw from and depend upon Me. My supplies are limitless (Phil.4:19). I would have you prove my promises. Let it not be said of you, “In this thing ye did not believe the Lord your God” (Deut. 1:32). Are you passing through a night of sorrow? This thing is from Me. I am the Man of Sorrows and acquainted with grief. I have let earthly comforters fail you, that by turning to Me you may obtain everlasting consolation (2 Thess. 2:16, 17). Have you longed to do some great work for Me and instead have been laid aside on a bed of pain and weakness? This thing is from Me. I could not get your attention in your busy days and I want to teach you some of my deepest lessons. “They also serve who only stand and wait.” Some of My greatest workers are those shut out from active service, that they may learn to wield the weapon of all–prayer. This day I place in your hand this pot of holy oil. Make use of it free, my child. Let every circumstance that arises, every word that pains you, every interruption that would make you impatient, every revelation of your weakness be anointed with it. The sting will go as you learn to see Me in all things. –Laura A. Barter Snow “‘This is from Me,’ the Saviour said, As bending low He kissed my brow, ‘For One who loves you thus has led. Just rest in Me, be patient now, Your Father knows you have need of this, Tho’, why perchance you cannot see. Grieve not for things you’ve seemed to miss. The thing I send is best for thee.’ “Then, looking through my tears, I plead, ‘Dear Lord, forgive, I did not know, ‘Twill not be hard since Thou dost tread, Each path before me here below. And for my good this thing must be, His grace sufficient for each test. So still I’ll sing, “Whatever be God’s way for me is always best.”‘”