sound

of rain at night. i love the way it mixes with one's dreams.

anyway./

up on my wall

on society reaches all time low or otherwise i am pathetic

the impossible has happened. never thought it would happen.

news of the day: read all about it: biggest nerd i am aware of gets engaged today.

it's just not funny. does every friend, and friend of a friend, or a friend and friend of an enemy really have to get married? dear Lord, i am 21 years old for heaven's sake and i'm like the last of the mohicans here.

yes, i am aware you draw more flys with a tomahawk not in hand... however the saying goes; 

wow, i am just really baffled. either society has really dropped it's standards or i just didn't catch that marriage memo going around. i just ask myself. WHERE DO THEY FIND THESE PEOPLE. you know, to get married to. and larger question who?! bless her dear soul ended up with mr. nerd incarnate?!  don't even start telling me how horrible i am for calling him that. this is not a nice nerdy guy, this is that 16 year old looking arrogant kid with tall white socks and cell phone clip. he was the last person i ever saw getting married. 

cruel, just cruel, world.

want to know something interesting? i even started looking at all my girlfriends that are/getting married. Expecting to find something common to all such as yellow hair box dye #47, 

something easily replicated on a large scale... no, instead i discovered a strange trait. rather two, every girl possessed tendencies toward: #1 DOING NOTHING with their life and #2 BORINGNESS. this actually does make sense. guys want a girl they are not intimidated by and can mostly you know, pick up after them.

i mean you don't exactly see the jane goodall's getting the guys (human variety, that is). living too exciting of a life and eccentricity=a big nope. like i said: revisit the two fundamental rules.

ug. i don't want to be boring and do nothing. i don't want to be cinderella.  i just don't see why you can't be this super cool bomb kicking going somewhere woman AND a wife. 

my mom can.

sincerely,

me

breathe. listen.

i remember these times

brooding mini me

growing up. thinking i was a hideous creature 

silly idealistic senior

stress

grrr!

http://qkme.me/36ijug

streams in the desert

“This thing is from me” (1 Kings 12:24). “Life’s disappointments are veiled love’s appointments.” –Rev. C. A. Fox My child, I have a message for you today; let me whisper it in your ear, that it may gild with glory any storm clouds which may arise, and smooth the rough places upon which you may have to tread. It is short, only five words, but let them sink into your inmost soul; use them as a pillow upon which to rest your weary head. This thing is from Me. Have you ever thought of it, that all that concerns you concerns Me too? For, “he that toucheth you, toucheth the apple of mine eye” (Zech. 2:8). You are very precious in My sight. (Isa. 43:4) Therefore, it is My special delight to educate you. I would have you learn when temptations assail you, and the “enemy comes in like a flood,” that this thing is from Me, that your weakness needs My might, and your safety lies in letting Me fight for you. Are you in difficult circumstances, surrounded by people who do not understand you, who never consult your taste, who put you in the background? This thing is from Me. I am the God of circumstances. Thou camest not to thy place by accident, it is the very place God meant for thee. Have you not asked to be made humble? See then, I have placed you in the very school where this lesson is taught; your surroundings and companions are only working out My will. Are you in money difficulties? Is it hard to make both ends meet? This thing is from Me, for I am your purse-bearer and would have you draw from and depend upon Me. My supplies are limitless (Phil.4:19). I would have you prove my promises. Let it not be said of you, “In this thing ye did not believe the Lord your God” (Deut. 1:32). Are you passing through a night of sorrow? This thing is from Me. I am the Man of Sorrows and acquainted with grief. I have let earthly comforters fail you, that by turning to Me you may obtain everlasting consolation (2 Thess. 2:16, 17). Have you longed to do some great work for Me and instead have been laid aside on a bed of pain and weakness? This thing is from Me. I could not get your attention in your busy days and I want to teach you some of my deepest lessons. “They also serve who only stand and wait.” Some of My greatest workers are those shut out from active service, that they may learn to wield the weapon of all–prayer. This day I place in your hand this pot of holy oil. Make use of it free, my child. Let every circumstance that arises, every word that pains you, every interruption that would make you impatient, every revelation of your weakness be anointed with it. The sting will go as you learn to see Me in all things. –Laura A. Barter Snow “‘This is from Me,’ the Saviour said, As bending low He kissed my brow, ‘For One who loves you thus has led. Just rest in Me, be patient now, Your Father knows you have need of this, Tho’, why perchance you cannot see. Grieve not for things you’ve seemed to miss. The thing I send is best for thee.’ “Then, looking through my tears, I plead, ‘Dear Lord, forgive, I did not know, ‘Twill not be hard since Thou dost tread, Each path before me here below. And for my good this thing must be, His grace sufficient for each test. So still I’ll sing, “Whatever be God’s way for me is always best.”‘”

sorry excuses for a man, it's time somebody told you...

mark driscoll knows every guy in the book [see 0:15:00]; scary how accurate this is.